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Saturday, September 11, 2010

Who Am I?


Who Am I?

Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its trouble, It empties today of its strength."  
What makes me weak? My fears..... 
What makes me whole? My God. 
What keeps me standing? My faith. 
What makes me compassionate? My selflessness. 
What makes me honest? My integrity. 
What sustains my mind? My quest for knowledge. 
What teaches me all lessons? My mistakes. 
What lift's my head high? My pride, not arrogance. 
What if I can't go on? Not an option. 
What makes me victorious? My courage to climb. 
What makes me competent? My confidence . 
What makes me sensual? My insatiable essence. 
What makes me beautiful? My everything. 
What makes me a woman? My heart . 
Who says I need love? I do. 
What empowers me? My God & Me. 
Who am I? I AM A PROUD, STRONG WOMAN! 

This was sent to me by a very dear friend of mine, who I haven't seen in over 6 years. But I love it and wanted to write a little of my thoughts after receiving this.

Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its trouble, It empties today of its strength."
Powerful statement. Basically I agree that we must live each day for the day and not put all of efforts in the future. Not saying I can't plan for a fabulous trip... but worry about how I'll make it through that interview, cope with the loss of my father, pass that test, etc.

What makes me weak? My fears..... 
I have never really considered myself a weak person, never viewed myself as being inferior or scared of things, but I do have fears. I fear that I am not doing exactly what God has me here on Earth to do, that I'm a bit too selfish at times, that I am going to be stuck in this house for a while, that debt seems to stand beside me no matter what... 

What makes me whole? My God. 
You know I was thinking of this the other day... and how I love Him. 

What keeps me standing? My faith.
I have counted on my faith for as long as I can remember, and I remember great things happening when I leaned on God. I know that God doesn't promise everything happy and gleeful, but He does promise to be there when we have low times... just knowing He is there, still, no matter what... is comforting.

What makes me compassionate? My selflessness. 
My parents always taught me compassion, to give of self. As hard as this is to do at times, especially when you are taken for granted or used, it is still better knowing that I am doing what I believe is the right thing... If the person on the receiving end has a different view, then that is their problem.

What makes me honest? My integrity.  
Maybe this is me... but even in "jokes" when an "untruth" is told... it's still a lie. I am not going to say that I never have lied, because that in itself would be a lie... but I do pride myself on my integrity, and anyone choosing to challenge that or attack that is merely a demonstration of their lack of knowledge about me as a person, and more importantly, a statement as to who they really are.

What sustains my mind? My quest for knowledge.  
I could so be a full time, career student. I love learning. (not the testing part...but the learning is fun). I get bored too easily if the subject matter becomes routine or monotonous. One of my favorite quotes, from a while back, is "if you think education is expensive, try ignorance"... Look at society and the state of our country. If there were more educated individuals, we might not be in the pickle we are in at the moment.

What teaches me all lessons? My mistakes.  
This one deserves it's own blog. :) Everyone has made mistakes, but some haven't learned from them. I have learned that I shouldn't take things so personally, but I still do at times. I trust too easily. Forgive too slowly. Love too hard, and hate with passion... Wow. See, it deserves it's own blog... moving on...

What lift's my head high? My pride, not arrogance.  
I am proud of my accomplishments, but more of the person I have become. I pride myself on my achievements in athletics, but more so making my parents proud. I pride myself on my work ethic and unfortunately criticize those who don't share the same passion. I take it all with humility, and am very thankful for my talents.

What if I can't go on? Not an option.  
Oh, I've thought about it, for maybe 10 minutes.... had my own little pity party, poor me, what am I going to do, and then I usually snap out of it. For the life of me, I can't feel sorry, destitute, or hopeless without feeling God move through me and in turn make me realize that I am very blessed. The good always outweighs the bad, giving me focus and determination, not only to go on, but to get through whatever obstacle arises.

What makes me victorious? My courage to climb.  
Ambition. And not climbing in the physical sense. I went hiking with my uncle a few years back, and he schooled me... but mentally, psychologically, yes, I am ambitious. Especially when you tell me it can't be done. Though I procrastinate a bit, I always find new ways to be successful.

What makes me competent? My confidence.  
Ha ha... I don't think I've ever been called incompetent... unless it's in accounting class. But if I believe in something, what I do, what I believe, with all my heart, I am 100% confident in selling it, promoting it, making it useful to everyone, even if they don't think so. And no, I'm not a salesperson, but I very well could be, depending on the field. :)

What makes me sensual? My insatiable essence.  
This one makes me laugh... of course, my insatiable essence... :)

What makes me beautiful? My everything.  
I am a child of God. As I'm sure you have heard many times, it's not the outward appearance, but rather the inner beauty that counts. Well, the world we live in, full of shallow people with Hollywood mentalities, it's sometimes hard to believe that... But there is so much more than that... My eyes make me beautiful... but if they are not kind and compassionate, where is the beauty?

What makes me a woman? My heart .  
plus my soul, my faith, my love, me.. and genetics of course.
Actually, God made me who I am...

Who says I need love? I do.  
Who doesn't? So next time you are thinking your day couldn't be any better, make it a point to pay it forward, and smile, pay for someone's cup of coffee in line, hug your kid a little longer... Love isn't love until you give it away. ;)

What empowers me? My God & Me.  
My God first and foremost, but I am the one to set it in motion.

Who am I? I AM A PROUD, STRONG WOMAN! 
:) that I am.


Saturday, September 4, 2010

searching

Wow. Went to see Eat, Pray, Love tonight. What an amazing journey. Makes me want to take one. Not for a year, but for a few weeks.

Bucket list.