In My Soul Today

You know... sometimes you just have this moment... when these words come over you. Well, that's what happened to me. This didn't happen to me, but in the perspective of my aunt, through my eyes, these words just came to me. Sorry, there is no punctuation, and parts may not even make that much sense, but I wanted to share. I pray for her and what she's going through... each day, and I know that God is right there... each day, protecting her, holding her, reassuring her He is not leaving.

It ends in a prayer that I not only applied here, but to my life as well.

In My Soul Today 

Waking up at dawn

To face another day

With the haunting reality

That things are not the same

Going through routines

Saying heartfelt prayers

Deep in my heart

Missing his care

One moment it's surreal

He can't be really gone

Too many dreams to live

Like a song left unsung

When my heart beats

It aches to fill the space

For the youngest of mine

That can never be replaced

No words can comfort

No tears can drown the pain

No hugs can melt away

What's in my soul today

And then this smile walks in

And takes me back in time

Of innocence and hope

My memories rewind

From sleepy eyes just out of bed

A look of love so pure

Let's me know that

I will through this endure

I relish in his little face

The carefree, loving soul

He's passed these traits down to him

And in turn, he'll never be old

Bless this child that's left behind

Who doesn't understand why

In a split second his life forever changed

And his daddy had to die

A eternal stamp in time

A meaningful life he lead

A cherished life remembered

With no words left unsaid

So my prayer to You, God

Is to please gently take my hand

Calm me when my soul shudders

When the pain I can't stand

Shed Your grace upon me

Let me feel Your breath

Help me give You everything

Everything I have left

Turn my life over to You

Not worry what may come

You are in control

Let Your will be done

12.22.2010

for Aunt Bonnie, with love.

nothing like the present

to let you know what's on my mind... actually, many things are running around in there, mostly thinking about what the future holds... and really there is no use in contemplating that, it's simply a waste of time. But I think I am genetically wired to worry. :)

Sometimes things happen that seem to be a test of faith and patience, and honestly, just plain mean. Never for the life of me, will I ever understand how someone who claims to be this great Christian, has no trace of integrity or tact.

friends close to the heart

I've been blessed enough lately to be surrounded by invaluable friends that span my entire life. From childhood neighbors, high school teachers, and classmates in college to philanthropic colleagues, media personnel, and "by chance" meetings in Florida... I have been very blessed.

I have had many types of friends, I don't discriminate. :) From one extreme to the other, and I love them all.

Open minds and Selfless Random Acts of Kindness...

These are not so common, but so appreciated.

I'm not sure why I give people the benefit of the doubt most of the time... I try not to predetermine someone's view or feelings without getting to know them. I feel as though I am a pretty good judge of character... however, I have been reminded how closed minds can wipe out any source of normalcy in a life.

I grew up with my parents just about doing anything for anybody. Sometimes this was a good, appreciated thing, and others, it was a lesson in being taken advantage of. All in all though, I believe as long as your heart is in the right place, everything will work out the way it is intended to in God's eyes.... not necessarily yours.

I pray for peace that surpasses understanding, a  healing that falls like rain, and a genuine comfort that only God can give.